parwina

I think of him a lot - my heart aches, my eyes burn, my facade shatters,  I miss him even when I say I don't,  I miss the butterflies that would fill my stomach at a single thought of him, I miss the way he made the most simple of acts seem so amazing, a hug, a kiss, a smile, a laugh. I miss the wanting.& Wanting everything, wanting nothing - being so filled up by him!  I miss the need - needing to be so much closer,  but closer never being enough.  I even miss the pain he brought.  Never being good enough,  scared I will be left broken if he left... and he did, 

I hide neath my skin and smile from within At all that passes me by I shout out a word That cannot be heard In syllables that float to the sky I snicker and sneer As I quell all my fear and place it far from my sight Laugh though I could and surely I would placing darkness into the light My hands they do shake as I continue to take What I believe belongs to me I have to be strong and right all my wrongs placing joy in my recovery Moments are rare When we really care To see beauty wherever we look I crawl from inside No longer to hide My soul  now an open book Time is our gift To give one a lift So believ